musings #4

Fuck man, its June!
(as always all pics are from pinterest, found here)
past:
I have: tried on a lot of very ugly swimwear, read, partied, baked a lot of cakes, drank a lot gin, cried a few times, ran a lot, burned out, denied myself r&r (must! not! stop!), bought too many pairs of culottes, had an evening picnic on the beach, ate bircher muesli, tried and failed to curb my fruit consumption, enjoyed wine, dreamed of summer picnics w pals, worked an absurd number of hours, had some very good days and some quite bad days, felt nostalgic that this year is coming to an end, adored the sun but felt sad I had to spend so much of it inside, laughed, flirted, documented a lot in my journal, had a sick flute lesson (legit its the most cathartic therapy, for me the hour is the most essential form of weekly self-care), tried to tackle my reading list and sewed a hideous prototype of a dress lmao.

present:
Its Friday. I've spent the day being paid to make cakes. I've got my window open, tunes blasting, and an ethereal golden light streaming through. I am shattered beyond most measures but trying to take advantage of these seconds of peace. This evening has been blissfully mundane, a bath, a run and a peng risotto. Ah, breathe.

future:
Tomorrow I go to Manchester for the night. Mixed feelings.
My friends come home next week. Hype for mint nights out, evenings in, day trips, laughter, familiarity, a long ol' summer. Also ambiguity and stress because we're all gonna b so busy and idkk will shit get organised??? will our schedules align?? (the answer is: everyone else's will because I'm the only fucker who works days) also stress because all the things I wanna do and wanna achieve and places I wanna go but when will I a) fit them in, b) get round to organising them, c) what happens if something is actually happening at home and I don't wanna go???
But, 3 weeks today I'll be basking in Hungarian sunshine and drinking £2 mojitos and gurl I am HYPED.
I also came to the (slightly concerning) realisation that I said yes to so many shifts that I don't have a single day off in June (aside from 2 weekends away) but I think its gonna be okay?? money and busy-ness are both good and this year has taught me the acquired skill of a 7 hour shift after a night out.

SO yeah! I've been busy and a bit sad but also excited and reflective. Nothing new there.
Let me know what you've all been up to!

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  1. Just as I dug out my phone from a cereal box (yep) on my revision break I see that you've posted this- a perfect way to procrastinate. That picture of the leaves in peaches/oranges is my phone background so there's a happy coincidence for you. I feel like I haven't commented on your blog in months, I promise I've been reading. It's crazy how your gap year is almost coming to an end, I feel like I've experienced it with you throughout. Weird to think that this may be me next year... All the extra shifts will be worth it for the dolla you'll be able to spend on holidays (and well y'know...living at University lol) Hope June treats you well and enjoy Budapest, here comes the mandatory "send me a postcard" that I've grown so accustomed to saying ;)

    Dalal // dalaltahira.com

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    1. ahaha love it. Isnt it mad?? its been a whirlwind but definitely an experience I would recommend (?) hahah of course I'm *supposed* to be savin for uni but we all know that isnt really happening. OF COURSE (I'm so excited eek) x

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  2. It seems you've done a lot and the future seems a lil bit hectic but super exciting nonetheless, I hope you and your friends found time to catch up but I feel you with working :( It might suck but I guess it's just a part of life and omgggg it will be so worth it when ur having fun and enjoying ur time :') Please take a lot of pictures when u go on ur much deserved holiday <3
    http://sputniksweetheartn.blogspot.com.au/

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    1. Thank you gal, I just always remind myself of the pay check ahaha. AH I hope so, of course <33

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  3. Everything you're doing on your gap year sounds incredibly exciting, a mix of work and play and the nights out sound wild. Your holiday sounds SO good and you totally deserve it. It is crazy that your gap year is slowly petering out but uni sounds exciting and fresh and new, I think (and hope) the change will be good :) x

    eleanorclaudie.com

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    1. hahah its been a whirlwind for sure. I know?! but I am so excited for the change and for new people and experiences and to document the journey haha x

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  4. Ah man I am so excited for you to go back to Budapest!! Hope June is okay and that you don't die with all those shifts!!x

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    1. heheh I'm so excited too. Thank you gal, its a roller coaster but isn't all of life???x

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  5. Ah Katie I love your writing <3 It's always hectic planning and trying to organise things with friends when everyones all over the place. Sounds like you've got soo much to look forward to, even though the gap year is coming to a end. It's crazy how fast it's gone!! Hope you have the bestest time in Buda (if you have any recommendations pls pls hmu!!) xoxo
    www.lexiealexandra.com

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    1. Thanksss Lexie!! its mad, I can't believe its almost over but you're so right, theres so much exciting stuff coming up!! OFC, its such a fab city I'll tell ya all my fave spots xx

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