a breath

Here are just some pics from the city that is now home.
Its all a bit mad, my brain needs a few minutes of quiet. A bit of familiarity.
Its all amazing and a privilege and astounding and rigorous and exciting but overwhelming and underwhelming and exhausting and maybe I just need to allow days, weeks, months to find my feet.








Of course I do. Everything is so new and stimulating and man, I haven't done this education thang in too long. But I spent last week getting drunk, meeting new people, thriving on euphoria, this week in the library and exploring and seeing Hilary Clinton and running and a little bit of crying. But its good and its fun, but its also okay that bits of it aren't. That bits are scary, that home feels a long way away.
I need to establish a balance of work and fun, routine, re-connect with the bits of my life that are outside this (blog, letter writing, watching trash, reading) because I neglected them and my brain suffered.
So it feels I've lived a life time in 10 days. I need to remind myself that I am here, a sense that will become overwhelmingly real on Saturday, clad in our 'subfusc' (Oxford nd its wankery language am i right?) marching into a latin ritual. Lmao.
But also that bits can be bad and the whole experience can still be good.
It is good. Actually, its very good.
This city is amazing.

Tell me about ur lives g's. I need some familiarity and grounding xox

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  1. Over stimulation when your getting use to new situations IS REAL! I am glad you are finding your way around and taking care of yourself too! (running!) I've been fitting so many anatomy terms in my mind. Not as interesting haha but that's what's up :)

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    1. Possibly the only way I'm successfully managing to take care of myself...but it is a mood! I could sleep for days haha. AH, that sounds difficult haha, hope its going okay <3

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  2. I feel like we're going through such similar experiences rn just in different parts of the world! It's like reading an excerpt of my thoughts!! esp w the feelings of the new city that is now home being overwhelming and underwhelming~
    http://sputniksweetheartn.blogspot.com.au

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    1. yes!!!! Reassuring to know someone else is feeling the same sense of uncertainty. Its strange but I'm praying we'll find our feet...lots of love xox

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  3. I can't wait to follow your Oxford journey Katie and I cannot wait to hear lil' anecdotes about your university experience. If you want to know a bit about my life to keep you grounded, I've currently just finished writing my history coursework first draft and am in the middle of doing a practice HAT paper (or not considering I'm commenting on your post lol, talk about balance). I hope everything is fabulous :) <3

    eleanorclaudie.com

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    1. Haha, I'm sure you'll hear a lot about it over the year :') How are you finding the HAT papers?? Which college did you apply to?? hope its all going well xoxo

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    2. p.s as i comment I'm in the library supposedly doing the reading for an essay due tomorrow (!!!) so with you on the balance(/mostly procrastination haha)

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  4. I might be moving soon too to another city to do an internship and i'm scared tbh!! which is silly cause I've managed to live 4000km away from home for a full year and loved it and now it's only a few hours away by car. maybe i'm getting too old for changes ehe glad to see you are enjoying your new home! it does seem beautiful and exciting :)

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